ok. my previous previous entry was not being sarcastic or hurtful. i said no offence right. and we really do not and i repeat that DO NOT hate you. please mind your words when you say WE CLAIMED. yes. and thank you for answering my question on hps during our cold war. thank you. i appreciated that. i really do. honestly. we were both close since young. and somehow. ur problems got us closer. i understand that during that time. i was the only person you could confide in. i truely understood it. i went out with you too. not once only ok. more than once. i listened to your problems. i gave you advice. but you obviously didnt accepted it. i had a hard time trying to make you understand. which until now. i have no idea whether you fully understood what i was trying to tell you in the past.

ok. then you started to ask me out quite alot. and i admit i rejected most of the time. i was preparing for my Os. i was really very worried bout' it mind you. REALLY worried. i wanted so badly to get into my dream course. because of the stupid school remedials and SSP. i hardly have time to spend with my sis. who was pregnant. she needs me around. and i couldnt spend enough time with her. you of all people should know how much i treasure my family ties. how i love spending time with my family. but u didnt understand me at all. i had my own family problems then. lots of it. and who was there for me when i needed someone? noone. i had to face it on my own. i couldnt possibly tell my family too. and i didnt tell my friends.

we quarrelled and we reconciled many times. and i did tried to make up with you many times. but many times. because i didnt have time to go out with you. you flared your temper at me. i had no idea why you did that to me when i thought you will understand. it was hurtful. very hurtful. i didnt like it. we had many clashes. i hate those clashes. the words you used to scold me. hurt me deeply. i cried after every quarrel we had. no. i am not trying to be pitiful. i just thought i should tell you the truth. we made up after each quarrel. but there is one that i will never forget. the last quarrel we had that until now have not been resolved. i couldnt believe my eyes when you said : "cousins? PUI we are not even friends" the word "PUI" is too much for me to take. you despised me. you showed it out.
like what you said. "wounds may heal but a scar will always be there" i agree. those few words that you told me will always be a scar. i will never forget. never. and yar. before i forget. spend more time with your parents. and share things with them too. they love you alot. every outsider will be able to see their love for you. appreciate it. being in a relationship doesnt mean the whole world. relationship sucks. singlehood rocks. family ties rules. open up more to people. get to know more different friends. it wil do you good. hopefully your 2 yrs in hcjc will be great. ((:
if you think what i just wrote was sarcastic and hurtful. i'm sorry. i didnt mean to write in this way. it was meant to be a harmless entry. a reply to you. tekcare (:



got my NP enrollment package today. chimology. dont understand. shall consult more ppl. *yawns* tuition was alright. but i was getting irritated when caryn keep on asking irrelevent questions. even alyosious was irritated. hopefully she will change. i think she is getting too dependant on me. sharks.

jazz it up baby.
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