remember me complaining about the selfish people i met in poly..? i had a long talk with my sis bout poly life last night. she enlightened me. kinda. she told me that everyone in poly are like that. they only think of their own grades. she asked me to think of my own grades before others. but i thought that i just wanted my whole class to grad. to next sem. guess this isnt a very easy thing to do with all the competition around. mcm is not a course to be trifled with.

a quote from my jiefu : "in poly.. they give u shit.. and expect u to grow a tree outta it."

i nearly died laughing. but i thought what he said was damn true. and in poly.. u have to be independant. it is no longer like sec. sch where u can help each other to pass this coming common test or final yr test. where u can exchange notes and give remedials on the previous lessons. in poly... noone bothers at all. they want the best people to be in their group. noone else but the best. no wonder my jiefu asked me to go to a JC. he was worried i couldnt take the stress in poly. but i will try my best to do it.

come to think of it.. why make my poly life so miserable by thinking that everyone is selfish.. right? i can still love them (trying hard to do it )

went to have dinner with daddy after sooo long. glad i got to see him. but i think conversations between the both of us are getting fewer and fewer. he doesnt talk as much as he used to be. i really miss my old daddy. i really wonder when is the next time i am going to see him again. with my workload increasing.. it is almost impossible to visit him again. neither does he take the initative to visit us. paige is damn cute today. she has always been cute. we slept in the car together while my mum searched for some medical hall in bishan. i think we covered the entire bishan. *amazed*

how i wish i could have more talks with my sis. it makes me feel alot alot alot better. honest.

JIE! if u are reading this.. i just wanna tell u that.. u have no idea how much i longed for talks like what we have each time u come over to stay. it really made me feel that at least that is someone out there who would listen to me rattle on and on.. and also one who could give me sensible advice. but now u are so busy.. we hardly have such talks. i miss those days.

i realised whatever i wrote was damn random. like i am talking bout A den i jump to C den go to B.. and lastly to A again. LOL. why am i saying this.. @#$%%&^%/