tell me why planning ahead always do not work.
tell me why i dont like surprises in my life cos they all seem to be bad surprises.
tell me why i'm feeling so sucky despite going to turn 18.
tell me why i dont feel good anymore.

tell me.
tell me.
tell me.

happy birthday cheryn dearie. (:
seeing you tmr at your chalet.

sam, i hope you enjoyed your birthday at newyork newyork ytd.
great meeting up with you.

jazz it up baby.
10:22 PM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

goccery shopping and italian cooking with the boyfriend was like the sweetest thing on earth.
pasta with minced beef and shitake mushrooms drowned in italian tomato sauce with a tinge of spicyness. um umm.. add tobasco sauce and it is totally heaven!

bout 1 week plus into the new hse and my boyfriend is the frequent visitor already. just lazing around watching telly or the latest, him bringing his ps2 to play was wonderful. lalala, i'm loving my new hse.

spent the whole sunday night over at cher's and it was pure fun. thanks ccb for making everything seemed so right when everything seems to be going haywire for me. loved the funny actions you made just to make me laugh.
and remember, you got a whole lifetime of high end nail art courtesy from your lovely cherie (:

work was fine. so far so good. loving the whole "let's sit inside the shop and wait for customers to pop in and ask some questions before leaving" atmosphere. gimme my pay soon so i can pamper myself a lil as well as my sweetheart (:

staying over with sissy as usual, was funny. learning to talk like some robot, playing with the little one, chit chatting bout how our lives are.. gossiping bout the man in our lives. weeehooo. that's what sissies are for.

i guess that tiny lil hope that i held on to for 4 years is finally slipping off my fingers.
why can't YOU just let me hold on to that hope and not let me snap outta reality, for only in that world of mine, do i still find the strength to carry on with my life and to stay positive.

jazz it up baby.
12:48 AM

Sunday, September 17, 2006

5th day in my new hse.
i'm loving it. really!

i'm getting used to reaching home within 20 mins from town. so freaking fast that i cannot even doze off on the bus unlike in the past where the stupid 132 would travel round the whole of amk before reaching my hse.

unpacking sucks and my mama has been one great super mega powerful lady doing most of it cos me, the young lady, got to go for job training and also to work.

first day of work was quite fun. slack at times but once we are busy, we are really busy. it is as though the customers purposely wait outside the shop for other customers to start buying and join in the fun. manager is crude but nice cos she treat me lunch and drink! hahaha.

customers were overall.. nice. except for this super fussy lady who insisted that i should delete all the files from her old hp in front of her. like wth.

i just earned $84 today!! WEEEEEEE.
come cp and visit me!

it's true, i'm stuck on you. teeheehee

jazz it up baby.
12:11 AM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

lalala. i'm gonna shift tomorrow!!!!!!!
yesyesyes people, no more serangoon north!
sigghhhs, gonna miss this neighbourhood man. so safe that i felt like a baby in my mama's arms each time i come back home from a long day. be it 12am or 3am. it feels like its in the afternoon and noone dares to do anything to you!

byebye bus 25, 55, 76, 315.
no more easy access to the NEline. no more easy access to sam's hse, cher's hse, clique's hse, bear's hse. basically all my favourites' hse! =((
no more easy access to gardens for a chill out session.
no more bigg bigg room with bigggg toilet for me to dance around.
no more walks round the big big house.
no more memories of which i had in my void deck, the neighbouring areas and even in my own humble home . memories i missed so badly and deeply.

thinking bout it now, my new hse is close to say, town only? siggghhss.
oh well, new house is good. at least i still have my own room and i'm closer to my love! ((:

i'm gonna miss you housiee. really.

A BRAND NEW START MANN. i want it to be good. and i dont want it to end.

jazz it up baby.
9:01 PM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

sentosa,
the sun, the sand and the sea.

thunderstorm in the wee hours of today and i thought the whole tanning session would be cancelled. thank goodness, it cleared just before i left the house.

reached sunny sentosa and indeed, mr sun loves us! ((:
tanning was goood, soaking in the sea was even better. weeeeeeeeeeee!
elbows hurt from rubbing into the sand.
played pickup sticks and word puzzels. ate dino gummy.
what more could i ask for when the company is sooo sooo good. LOVES.

tram rides were oh so romantic cos the breeze was just right.
animal shows, skyride, musical fountain.
even makan-ing at koufu was wonderful. :D

the walks we had, the time we spent.
the stupid crappy stuff i said that you tried your best not to roll your eyes at.
weeee, let's do it again!
next time, we shall go to the zoo.

near-death experience made me frightened.
of losing my loved ones of my loved ones losing me.
sounds cliche, but i'm gonna cherish life even more now.
whether you like it or not.

sun-burnt skin is bad. my mum purposely whacked me somemore.
oh, silly mother that i love.

meeting sis and grandma tmr. i can hardly wait!

shifting hse soon! volunteers needed. LOL.

jazz it up baby.
11:45 PM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

just within a year..

these are my hairstyles..


started out with a C-shape fringe that caused controversy. k, maybe not that serious.
(i couldnt find the non photoshopped pic.)



















to this.. after somewhat like 8 months plus? my long beautiful mannne. the longest ever i suppposed.



















now this... just had a major haircut though you cant see much from the pictures.
did colouring too.



















you will be in for a surprise as tomorrow, most of the remaining hair will go.
i'm gonna sport short hair. uber short.
i'm scared, i'm afraid. all in 8 hours. just 8 hours more and my long hair is gone.
shall post a pic asap.

ps: cheryl dear, you know you are a great girl. who cares what those bitches say bout you. they are a bunch of childish kiddos who have low self-esteem and the only way to make them look better is to spread ridiculous rumours bout others. together we go, "HMPPH".

jazz it up baby.
11:41 PM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

j) NINTENDO SIXTY FOOOOOOOUUUUUURRRRR !!!!! | [Paused] says:
you looked nice to me in whatever hairstyle

.cherie i bathe naked says:
((: that's real swweeeet!!!

j) NINTENDO SIXTY FOOOOOOOUUUUUURRRRR !!!!! | [Paused] says:
seriously speaking I think short hair goes better with your spunky attitude

i love my cousin. really. he made me felt so much better. by far, the sweetest one ever. (:

work was tiring but nonetheless, fun.
thank goodness cher was there with me. the jokes, the convo. woowee, i couldnt have survived the entire day without her.
sam is off happily settling down in vietnam for 2 weeks. i'm missing her man. noone to chat all the way through the night with me now. COME BACK SOON GIRLY GIRL.

counting down:
hair disappearing in : 2 days
shifting hse in : 4 days

so many stuff is happening. why do i feel so sick & tired of it?

dreams are meant for sleeping. (tell me dreams do come true. assure me. cos i have a bad feeling.)

jazz it up baby.
1:45 AM